So this is my first post on here. So im kinda new to it, so stick with me. I use to have xanga but this is different. So anyways. Ive been through alot in my life and its been very difficult. Don't get me wrong there has been some pretty good times. But you know how it is. The bad times out shine the good. when it should be the other way around. I remember when i was in elementary school, no worries, no pressure, everything was great. Then i started to go to clark and everything changed. Clicks were formed and the peer pressure started. Of course i was deemed not cool. And i was put into the loner category. Which was ok with me because I really didn't care what people ethought of me anyways. I had some really great friends tho. Then my mom wanted to move so i wouldn't have to go to south high school. So we moved to Tremont City, and I attended Northwestern High school. I was in the color guard all four years. My sophmore year I started dating Michael. Man I thought he was the best. I thought I was gonna marry him. That he was everything. My Junior year I ended up getting pregnant. Michael and his parents wanted me to get an abortion but I knew I would regret it for the rest of my life. And when i told them that i wasn't doing that and i was keeping him, they said that i was in it for the money haha. I put up with alot of peoples shit at school. but i always kept my head up. This is when Michael started cheating on me all the time. I gave birth to my baby boy in the summer on June 14. His name is Cayden. Red hair, gorgeous. I went back to school for my senior year. Everyone thoguth that i would drop out like all other teenage mothers do but my son gave me even more reason to graduate. So my senior year of high school. I would take care of my son, go to school, go to color guard practice, do my homework, go to bed and do it all over again. It was extremely hard but it was totally worth it. And i took care of my son with no help from michael. We were still together but he was cheating on my all the time and he wouldn't do anything for cayden. After we graduated we got an apartment together and I thought everything was getting better. But we still fought all the time where it ended up in him putting his hands on me. So one day I took Cayden and we moved back to my moms. At the time I was working at goodwill, and I ended up meeting Jonathan who I worked with. We started talking alot. And within a month we were dating. And again, I fell head over heels. He would say everything right. But like every other guy it was just so I would fall for him and after I did he showed his true colors. I thought that he was the one and that we were going to get married and blah blah blah. We'll we decided to have a baby. And after three months of trying, I got pregnant with our baby boy. Jonathan was so overprotective of everything I did when i was pregnant. When billy joe was born, JOnathan thought he knew everything and I knew nothing. Which lead to us fighting all the time. I ended up putting a knife to my wrist. But was to scared to do it cuz I didn't want to leave my children behind. Well he ended up using that against me to get custody of lil billy joe. And despite everything that he did to me with the custody of billy and him beating me constantly and controling everything i did. We still got an apartment and I still wanted to marry him. Well we were off and on all the time. And at one point I started dating someone that I worked with named Dale. Well I ended up going back to Jonathan like always. And then I found out i was pregnant again. Jonathan knew that there was a chance that the baby wasn't his. Well we still fought all the damn time. And he ended up cheating on me with Ashley. So I left. He is now living with her and they are expecting a baby and they're getting married. Well my daughter was born in December. Marguerite Ann. We went down to child support and took a paternity test and Jonathan turned out not to be the daddy. So then Michael and Dale went and took their tests. Well yesterday I found out that Michael's test came back negative which means that Dale is her daddy. Which Dale and I don't get along at all. We haven't talked since he found out I was pregnant. And it wasn't a very nice conversation.

So Ive been dating Bradley Scott for two months now and its been absolutely amazing. We dated in 5th grade. We were eachothers first kiss. He is great with my children. He is totally the one for me. But today he has let it known that he doesn't like the fact that I have 3 baby daddys. Its not like I planned to. And its not like Im a slut either. I mean Ive been with 3 guys in the past 7 years. Look at all these other chicks out there and how many men they sleep with. I just am very fertile. It kinda hurt me when he said this to me. But there is nothing that I can do. I can't change it and yo uknow what if i had the chance i wouldn't because I wouldn't have my children and my children are my life. But despite this, i love bradley scott smeal with everything I am. He is the one Im going to marry.